I like being in control! I like knowing that I can make a plan, stick to it by working hard and have it come together well. I should really say, “I liked being in control!” One of the first things I learned after having a stroke when I was only 46 years old was that I might have thought I was in control, but I wasn’t. I might have thought I could give God Sunday’s and I’d take on the other six days of the week, but I was wrong. The fact is, I was never in control and neither are you.
Having a stroke meant I had to learn to surrender. I had to face the fact that my abilities as a “fix-it” guy were not going to come to the rescue. I had to do something that was hard for me to do. I had to be willing to give up my illusions of who Mark Moore was and hold on for dear life to who God is! That’s surrender! That’s where everything you thought you knew comes to a halt, and God finally has enough of your attention to help you become what He planned all along.
When I first looked at what was going to be required of me in the recovery process, I did not want to do it. I thought it would simply be easier if God just shut me down, packed me up and sent me back to His house. But, He didn’t do that! He kept me in the hospital for several weeks and then sent me back to my house. He showed me that recovery meant I had to totally trust Him and my wife, Brenda, and the therapists who would bring me back to good health.
Starting therapy looks daunting. It is daunting and it’s even frightening! Everything in me resented that I had to be there, that I had to learn things I’d known all my life all over again. If you’re facing therapy and recovery now, all I can tell you is to do what you’re told to do. Make the effort! Try harder than you’ve ever tried in your life and lean on the people who love you. Open your heart and mind to all that can still be possible for you. That’s what surrender requires. That’s what trusting God is all about. You’ll be in recovery for a long time, maybe the rest of your life, but you’ll be in good hands in the process.
Praying you stay strong!
The Scripture says that God put all things under his control.
1 Corinthians 15:26, NKJV